The Time For Blogging has Returned

Here I am, and it is close to mid night.

The words that I want to write are no where near my finger tips, no the words I want to write are taking their time choking me.

But then for a few seconds I gain control again and there isn't stress, there isn't worry. There is just peace, there is peace and quiet and I am not being smothered to death by my oppressive thought process.

The world seems to be full of thinkers, we always think, and I too am a thinker I always think and I am never the one to truly make a change. I do a little here and there, I will pick up trash and generally recycle when I can. But what does that really do, if I do not do more? What does it really do if I do not work harder to be committed to others and what they have to give out. If someone is starting out and they would like me to share their product or idea I will.

Collaboration is important.

When the Sun Rises

     When the Earth rotated into just the right position that sun light seeped through my curtains I finally fell asleep. I got the sleep I had so longed for that entire night, as I tossed and turned, completed a load of laundry and again colored my hair. There seemed to be no end, to the working ideas coursing through my brain. Small bolts of electricity keeping me alert, and unable to enjoy the episodes of memories that play upon my lids during a fulfilling rest. But finally my eyes shut in the morning hours and I was able to sleep, to go into the wonderful slumber of youth.

I Am Moving Further Away

      Every day it seems that I moving farther and farther away from the life I had envisioned for myself as a child. I travel my own road feeling that it is the only way for me to live a happy life, that if I do whatever I feel like that I will truly be happy. But that is not the case, although it puts me down when I do not reach my goals, totally giving up does not make the situation any better either.

      The best thing to do is to keep going after those goals I have created, there is tomorrow, there is the next day, there are THOUSANDS  of days before I reach my end.

THE END IS NEAR.

I am an Over Reactor.

     So recently I had posted a blog entry about my boyfriend and it was a complete over reaction. now that I realize that I have deleted the post and I just want to apologize for posting an entry under the influence of anger.

     There are days that it is important for me to realize that my actions have undesirable consequences.

This is the Beginning- Boy

 



   All I have is hope that the life I am living right now will change and get better. That not my life, but that I will be the one to change. I will be the one to change, and the one to change it.

Süße

     Today is valentines day, the least most lovey dovey day in the history of the universe. What would we do without valentines day??? How would we let that special someone that's special know how special they are? Well let me tell you, we wouldn't. We would just go on about our everyday lives without valentines.

Just kidding

Of course we would have love and joy and happiness. So today, when you feel that bitter sting, or that happy warmth take a moment, breathe and keep going. Life is just moving forward.



(Special thanks to google, for blogger, and for this image.)

At The Eagle River Campus. . . ;)

     The days are long and the classes are tiring, but we get through. WE make it and go on through the rest of the day as if it were nothing but a chore. WE go through the motions and think that the rest of the day will just be part of the routine. Our everyday necessities, the need to fill my head with music, the need to go relieve my bladder. Needs, and wants and what nots. They are all apart of life, and the things that we endure to survive. 

     It has always been a prominent thought that we need to live life, we aspire to do something amazing in this short period of time that we have. But that almost seems impossible to do something lasting, but maybe the smallest thing has affected someone in the most unusual ways. Maybe just those few dollars you donated helped a homeless person to get back into a level home. Just that little bit of time that we donate has helped a  family to get back on track with their lives. WE as a community do not want to see our neighbors fail. That is what I have always believed. The need to be apart of that living loving community that knows no bounds has been our end goal. 

      We all have reasons for living and leaving and hopefully each of our reasons are noble and just. But the reasons that seem out of place and unworthy, those are just there for us to get through.

My big brother had always told me that God won't put us through what we can't overcome. 

Have a great day.